Great Expectations
What I have Learned…
Hello Again,
It has been a while since I last wrote to you all and wrote for myself.
I have taken some time to figure out what was lacking my life and what makes me happy.
I can genuinely say that exploring new things and meeting new people is something that I enjoyed so much. It is also nice to be around people who want to build you up and not take your shine away.
It is very easy to get stuck in the monotony of everyday life. I realized that by accepting how things are and not what they could be and putting in the work to achieve what is the best for me and want to accomplish my dreams I was enabling everyone and everything around me to remain the same.
I decided to reframe how I thought about myself and about my life by doing the work. I started therapy, increased my depression med dosage and decided that in order to live the life I wanted I would need to do what I am most afraid of. There is no better way to face fears then by just taking the leaps.
That may be easier sad than done but I shall not resign myself to a life half-lived. It is okay to want a life that feels full and sparks passion, happiness and the pursuit of my desires. It starts with my daily coffee and taking a walk to get my blood pumping. I have started reading again and making plans to get my garden going. I made plans to travel soon and have even purchased my plane ticket so that I can feel more empowered to follow through with my trip.
I must give myself some grace. I am trying my best and that is all I can do.
